For too long, I’ve hidden behind the safety of half-measures. I’m done with that. It’s time to lay bare the truth behind the world I’ve built—the doubts, the fears, and why I almost deleted Aurelda.

Introduction to Aurelda

Aurelda is more than just a fantasy world—it’s a sanctuary for gay men seeking meaningful connections, spiritual growth, and a place to explore queer love. Set in a mystical realm inspired by the Yucatan Peninsula, Aurelda draws on themes of ancient wisdom, sacred sexuality, and reincarnation.

It’s a world for gay men, spiritual seekers, and fans of mythology and fantasy storytelling. I created Aurelda as a space for those who feel disconnected from the mainstream—those who are searching for their place in the world, just as I have been.

The Conflict

Aurelda is more than a fantasy world. It’s a reflection of my own unresolved struggles—the tension between seeking meaningful connection and indulging in moments of escapism. On one side, there’s the desire for something deeper—to be seen, heard, understood. On the other, there’s the temptation to settle for fleeting connections that often leave me feeling more isolated than before.

Struggling with Authenticity

I’ve had cycles of fleeting connections—a thousand Grindr profiles deleted, countless moments that ended in shame. Each time, the same feeling: I wanted more but didn’t know how to find it. Aurelda almost became another casualty of that struggle. There was a day when I hovered over the delete button, ready to erase everything, because vulnerability scared me more than anything. I wondered, “Am I really creating something meaningful? Or am I just hiding?”

Creative Choices and Insecurities

I’ve always hidden behind the tools—using voice-overs and AI images because I wasn’t ready to put myself out there on camera. For the longest time, I worried: Does this make me less authentic? Does it cheapen what I’m creating? I see others who make it as influencers by being on camera, and I’ve questioned whether I need to follow that formula. But then I realized: Authenticity isn’t about following a formula—it’s about aligning with your truth. Aurelda is my truth, and even if I’m not on camera, my soul is present in every part of it.

[Video] The Struggle for Authenticity: Gay Men Seeking Connections

Invitation to Connect

This isn’t just about a world I’ve created—it’s about confronting the parts of myself I’ve been running from. The shame, the doubt, the fear of vulnerability. I’m no longer hiding. I’m here. Aurelda is here. If you’re reading this, maybe you’re a gay man seeking meaningful connections too. If so, come explore this world with me. Dive deeper, read the extended, uncensored version of this post on Patreon »